Davis was afraid that if he acted on Jillian Hayden, it might inevitably corrupt his Will since it would be more like acting on his dark desires rather than love. After all, his meeting with Jillian Hayden wasn’t exactly merry but cruelty since she had been City Lord Kain’s prisoner whom he could take advantage of because he had taken over City Lord Kain.
Even though he helped her a lot of times and she even helped him back, this dark feeling still remained. If it were any other time in the past, it wouldn’t have mattered, but it now interfered with his development of his Will, whether it improved or was corrupted was in line.
This was also where he realized that the ’impose’ of State of Divine Possession purely wasn’t one of a battle against Will but also against the sexes.
A Phyletic Law of the human race at a higher realm was indeed urging him to impose his seeds on hundreds, if not millions, of women in the long run. He hated this feeling slowly rising in him, only amplified by Zenova’s stupid jokes about getting him ten thousand concubines and whatnot.
He felt he must put a stop to it, but even Evelynn was practically recommending Jillian Hayden to him.
More than all of this, there was also the issue of Being of Original Sin.
He didn’t know when this mystical being would suddenly show him in his attempts to impersonate people. He had impersonated quite a few times now, and even laid traps with Fallen Heaven in his realm space, but this damned being never revealed itself even till now.
He also had a theory that the Being of Original Sin would appear if he kept acting on his dark desires.
He had even considered that this urge to sleep with women for no reason was a temporary side effect of devouring City Lord Kain’s Will, but he felt that wasn’t possible due to how easily he took over City Lord Kain’s Will.
Regardless of which, it was true that he liked Jillian Hayden!
He might even be closer to falling in love with her as he adored her for siding with him over the Celestial Transcendent and then even fulfilling her words of helping Evelynn, even though the poison concoction was whack in his opinion.
However, the damned Will he had was also urging him to sleep and have his way with her from the moment he met her. It was himself, but also not.
This was the dissonance he felt- the root cause of his hesitation- the source of corruption.
He had told Jillian Hayden to scram in two days, or he would act on her. It was also a way of keeping his hands to himself, but now that it was time to leave and Evelynn made him realize that he liked Jillian Hayden more than he had guessed, he looked toward her, wanting to confront her one last time before leaving, perhaps never meeting with her again.
But knew that if he stepped forward and confronted her, she would say no because he had scared her by revealing Enigmatic Heart Laws. He could tell that she was unsure of herself and what she was feeling for him right now. In fact, scaring her was an intentional move on his part since he wanted to test her.
There weren’t many women who could trust a master manipulator of Will, and thereby their own emotions, as they wouldn’t be able to tell whether these emotions were theirs or artificially induced. In reality, no one would trust such a person.
Hence, even if he wanted a new woman, it was extremely better for him to vet that woman harder than ever.
Regardless, the fact that Enigmatic Heart Laws and his deep comprehension of Karma Laws allowed him to predict fate like this and see ahead of what Jillian Hayden would do also made him stop. She could only impress him if she were to act in an unpredictable way, but that’s not happening since he still felt in control of the situation.
His sense of danger wasn’t ringing yet, and neither did his instincts recognize that something was wrong.
Everything except Evelynn here ranged from bland to mildly intriguing to him. Perhaps he was bored beyond compare.
This was an emotion that he had wanted to shake off ever since he arrived here. After all, it wasn’t like everything had been bland to him, so what was this stifled and sinking feeling?
Where did it come from?
Was it just as Evelynn said? Should he just be true to his desires? It didn’t matter if it was good or bad?
"What are you thinking for so long?"
Abruptly, Evelynn’s voice made him come out of his reverie. With a blink of his eyes that shuttered Jillian Hayden from his gaze, he turned to look at Evelynn.
"I understand. I will talk to her once I finish off the Saint. You bring her away in your life ring if you’re leaving early."
"Understood."
Evelynn answered softly before she saw Davis disappear.
It seemed his opportune moment to kill the Saint had arrived, so he dipped in the last second possible before he could feel a different trajectory in fate descending that screws them over.