“…”
Shien descended into silence.
It’s because he didn’t want his gaze, expression, or tone to show even the slightest bit of sympathy.
It’s not because Shien is unsympathetic. It’s just that he believed that his sympathy will not only not make Diere happy, but instead be an insult to her.
Reality agreed with him.
“I don’t actually care much about the matter of my mother being killed.”
Dier spoke to Shien with an inhumanly cold tone.
“Just from an objective point of view, she wasn’t really good to me, so my own feelings toward her can’t possibly be all that good either. Plus, she was a spy from another country, betrayed the Kingdom, and was a mastermind who caused enormous amounts of damage to the Capital. I’m already being decent enough to her just by not hating her, so never mind about getting angry over her being killed.”
It’s quite logical and objective of her.
“The only thing I can do for that person is to repay her for allowing me to be born into this world.” Diere spoke indifferently, “Therefore, at that time, I made a request to someone else for the first time.”
What was that request?
It wasn’t anything much. It’s just to help make a grave for her mother.
If not for Diere’s request, then how could Diere’s mother, sinner as she is, possible have a grave?
As for the person who could help Diere realize her request, there’s obviously only either Lucy or Leili.
This made Shien involuntarily remember the matter from back when he saw Diere in the graveyard.
Back then, Diere had shed tears in front of her mother’s grave. It probably wasn’t due to sorrow at her mothers passing though, right?
Her tears and her grave visit were merely an act of remembrance for her past, that’s all.
It’s also for that reason that she doesn’t need any sympathy.
However, at the same time, Shien really did feel like Diere had been unfairly treated.
Just because of the issue of a unique skill, she ended up rejected by her family, feared by her clan. She had no freedom since she was little, and she never experienced any of the joy and happiness of childhood.
She was tossed about by fate solely due to the arbitrary decisions of adults, and was forced to live a life of loneliness.
In the end, she was even turned into a sacrifice without the right to complain because of the problems between her parents, maneuvers between nations, and fighting between people.
Those so called nobles, with the mother who was the main culprit already dead, under the torment of being unable to gain revenge, ended up putting all their hatred onto Diere and forcing her to take on the vengeance of the victims. That really is just too unreasonable.
But it can’t be helped, Diere is after all the only person who had blood relations with that person.
As for those those families were killed by the Old Demon Faction due to Diere’s Mother, who else are they supposed to hate, if not Diere, as the child of that sinner?
That’s why Diere ended up leaving that home.
However, the day she left, Diere also gained a goal.
And that is to defeat her father – Aldia Arbin.
It wasn’t to get revenge for her mother. Nor was it to get revenge for herself. It’s just that she dislikes that cold and unfeeling man.
“If mother looked at me like she’s seeing something dirty, then that person had never properly looked at me even once.”
“When I was being feared by the family and clan, he just coldly watched. He didn’t care or intervene. Nor had he ever conveyed any opinion over it.”
“When I more or less gained some freedom and was kept by his side, he just continued to coldly watch. He wasn’t guarded against me, nor did he pay much attention to me. He basically just acted like he’s only doing a job, without any feelings involved.”
“He’s like an emotionless weapon, a tool to maintain the honor of the family. His only meaning for existing seems to be the protection of the royal family and country. Calling him cold and unfeeling is practically praise.”
“Even when he discovered mother’s crime, he still didn’t show much emotion. He just suddenly pulled out his sword in front of me without a word to me or even mother and cut off mother’s head, just like a machine, mechanically going about its task.”
At that point, Diere’s tone finally started to show some emotion.
“I can’t understand that person’s heart, nor can I see through his thoughts.”
“I have to say though, it’s because of that, that I gained a bit of a grudge against him.”
“Not because he’s uncaring, but because he’s far more like a monster than me.”
That’s right, a monster.
In Diere’s eyes, Aldia is just an emotionless monster. Strong and unfeeling.
Yet that monster of all thing ended up having the respect and praise of everyone around him, and in the end, stood at the peak of knighthood.
Diere can’t understand that, nor could she accept it.
Just what’s the difference between her and him?
Strength?
Or is it the mind and heart?
Diere had been thinking about that the whole time.
Thus, Diere had set a goal.
That being…
“Defeat that man, surpass him, exceed him. Shatter his pride and dignity.”
Diere coldly stated.